The Zebra

Thursday-- We should know more about Matthew's diagnosis, prognosis and treatment on Thursday when we speak to the cardiologist that specializes in the heart muscle and electrophysiology.  We pray for good news but we are preparing ourselves in case it is not. 

There is a basic principle for doctors that says 'when you hear hoofs, expect horses not zebras'.  It seems to always be the zebra with Matthew.  The zebra always takes us off guard and knocks us down when we find out it wasn't the horse we were expecting. 

Thankfully having 3 young kids helps keep us so busy that we don't have time to think.  We know deep down that our journey may not end the way we wish, but there is very little time to concentrate on that.  Alyssa, Jackson and Matthew keep us in the moment.  That's not to say that life isn't a little different now.  I lose my sunglasses more often. I forget whether I shut the garage door several times a day. (Thanks to Cindy for checking!) I check to make sure I locked the car multiple times a day.  I forget to take the cloth bags to the store.  I take more pictures and more video.  We shed a few more random tears. But all in all, we are living like we always have, moment by moment in the craziness.

Matthew still seems to be in a bit of pain from his ear infection and is making sure we know it.  We are trying to manage it w/his antibiotics and tylenol.  We'll take him back to the pediatrician on Monday if it doesn't improve.   He does have periods of happy baby, which we relish.  Additionally, Matthew is starting to get separation anxiety, which is good because it is developmentally appropriate, but it is frustrating nevertheless.  We just keep reminding ourselves "developmentally appropriate is good."  We pray for patience...so that we can be kind and loving to our kids and one another.